Lines of light

Lines of light,
Stretching back in time, and far away in space.
Lines of learning and information.
Lineage. Traditions. Downloads. Doorways.
Passing though people objects and places.
The worlds' beyond worlds' wide web of consciousness.
Each being fully charged, plugged in, and wired up to different and intersecting patterns.
Our lineage becomes genealogy, tradition, teachers, origins.
And everything is accessible through each other.
We are doorways for one another.
We are the keepers of our own unique light lineage.
We bring all that we are forward, when the conditions are correct.
Lines of light. 

Amritham

Light with what is heavy.
Like a Bee. 
Tiny wings miraculously lifting an impossible body. Uplifting. It can be done. Against all reason - ridiculous essential buzz.
Light -  sweeten the hive.
Lighten ourselves and the amrit flows.
Feeling the places, the sugar got stuck. Crystallised honey pressing on the joints.
A light-worker on her knees for too long.
Its time to stand up. Its time to move.
Doing the unstuck this body starts to buzz.
Amritham.
Honey- 'I am light'
I Choose Light.
Born of the light.
Light will lead me home.

Big love

Unconditional love surrounds and permeates the whole. We are made of love. We are born of love.
Yet we forget love. We feel cut off from love, from self. A longing to return to love. The way back is love. The way home is love. The first step on the road is love. And beyond the destination, is love.

To feel is love. To perceive is to feel love. Feeling is loving. Our perception once purified is love. To tune into self is loving. To set intention is loving prayer. For love reveal love to all.. and for all to be open to love. A heart of love, ears of love, eyes of love.

We cannot know love. Love is living and can only be experienced. We recall love and re-experience the knowing then we realise love never left.

The word is love- who sings the word? The voice of love! Through doorways beyond doorways, into love. Through the self. To the cosmos. Love.

Ears open. Ears wide. Elephant ears. Open to the voice of love. We receive the music. Of love. And it wraps itself around us like a warm blanket. The practice holds us close in the light of love. So that we can know ourselves, as forgetful. And remember love never left. Like a great elephant, love never forgets us. Bhakti is the remembrance of love.

BIG LOVE. 

Getting Hare.

I offered someone a lift, and approaching the car I said ' I hope you don't mind, it might be hairy' He looked worried. I realised he didn't know I was referring to dog hair but instead thought I was a reckless driver. Very funny.

This draws a  great comparison . The hare and associations with fear. Running scared. or caught in the head lights.

When I look into my energetic body I can feel a lot of movement. Speed. There is energy running for sure. I ponder the difference between, fear, excitement, and high energy. These experiences often blur into each other. They are fast, they become a blur.

I think about the Hare. How animals release fear and trauma by shaking it off. Check it out. Animals shake stuff off a lot. 

Humans on the other hand often suppress the emotional responses and store them inside. 'I will deal with it later - right now it's not safe to show how I really feel.' 'Shit maybe its not even safe to 'feel' how I really feel'. 

I look inside my energy body. And I feel that which I have stored for later. I see how I froze like a rabbit in the headlights. Lumps and bumps of stuck energies. Not very funny. A hazardous road for sure.

This freezing up, this human taught suppression,  is in direct opposition with the highly charged movement of fear or trauma or even excitement. 

If I brace myself against it, I shall  create a 'fight'. A fight inside of self.

Stuck in opposition. Unable to move. Worse still. So afraid - Unable to feel. Disconnected from self. Unsure of the way forwards or back.

 And it's the dissonance of this situation that shakes inside , not so much fear itself.

The fear of fear. Frozen in vibration. Shaking but still.. Disconnected from how I feel, and how to feel. Floored. Trapped. Cornered.

 Dissonance is heavily stressing for all  human beings.

The Hare teaches 'Flight'. As I work with the hare I am encouraged to move faster. To catch up with myself. To run with the fear. The hare chases the fear out of me. I am not running away. I am alongside. Bounding. Accelerating. Creating a spring in my step. Instead of being afraid or ashamed of fear. The Hare runs alongside it.

I think of how athletes or actors prepare to perform.. they move..they make noise..They make ready. They make ready to step into the adrenaline.

I look into my energy body. I see how I'm shifting in vibration to catch up with held fear...It moves and I move. I work here. I step into. I leap into it.  I work with. I do not try to be rid of. I work with. I come into a relationship with what shakes, with what blurs, With the speed inside. 

Eventually I slow down, or does it slow down?  - I feel my energy settle, I settle. Has the fear been released or integrated? I do not know. 

But it is still and I am still.. I have caught up with myself. Thanks to the wisdom of the hare. 

Today the hare taught me to get moving. 

To face self - to know self.

To RUN energy to meet self.

To catch self - and calm self.

Now I am Hare. (sorry!) 

And for Now I am free of the burden of fear. ( woo hoo!! boing!) 

The seahorse and the sacrum

Undulation.
Fluidity. The healing of flow.
Feeling point and counter point.
Rocking gently between polarities - rocking horse.
Becoming aware of the opposing centres- top to bottom, and bottom to top.
One must feed the other.
Male and female. Suppress one - suppress both. The inequality is illusory. One must feed the other. Or both will suffer. Male and female - each giving role and vitality to the other. One must feed the other.
Finding balance between both. Both. Balance.
Tail supports head.
Head drops down to tail and rests.
All triangles balance.
Into potential beautiful geometry of opposition. - Sri Yantra.
Trust that it could come.
Let go, and drop the sacrum -like an anchor bone sinking deep, deep down.
Gentle Coaxing.
Rock a bye
Seahorse. Rest.

Air Self

'The invisible essential.'

Tune into your subtle self. Your air self.

The air about you this is perceptible yet intangible. You have an 'Air', That is perceptible yet intangible.

Air is simple to the point of not noticeable. Yet crucial. Perhaps you feel invisible, Please Remember you are vital.

 Air is complex, composed of a careful formula of gases and particles. You are complex, composed of a careful formula of body, mind, heart and soul.

Air can hold the awesome power of water. Becoming cloud.
You are the holder of emotional power and experience. You are like a cloud - with the potential to create havoc or nurture life.

Air seems light but can create pressure.  Sometimes in all of us,  the smallest things, create the biggest tensions. Sometimes the smallest gesture can generate the biggest ripples.

Air can insulate and regulate temperature. Your Air self - the subtle self- surrounds you, and takes care of you.

There are invisible dimensions of the self that are essential.  Tune in and give gratitude to the Air self.

Absorbing Self.

Art by Eleanor Carter

'Receptivity'

We can only absorb that which we have room for.
In order to receive we have to learn to profoundly 'let go'.
Drop into your breath. Breathe in. Breathe in again. and Breathe in.
We can only take on so much. Eventually nature dictates that we must 'let go'.
We must exhale fully before a deep inhalation becomes possible.
We decode, to re code. We fall asleep, to Wake up.
The more we 'let go' The more spacious we become. The more we can absorb.
As we surrender all expectations from the mind. The body wisdom is able to receive and absorb that which it needs. Whatever it is, 'let it go' even if only for a moment. Allow something new to come into you.
We can be 'self absorbed' in an unhealthy way - we hold ourselves so high that nothing can come into us. Breathing ourselves in and puffing ourselves up - until it feels we may pop.
Or we can absorb the self. Embracing the truth of the self, good and bad. Only seeing it , so we can liberate it. Breathing in our truth. Then letting it go.
When we practice this - one day we will yield so deeply, that on the next inhale - the universe floods into us.